What did I think?

I do not know what I was thinking. I still fall into the same thought patterns that get me in trouble. I know that everything is lousy and everything is crappy. I may be going back to Cagayan De Oro and I could be doing something very good for this earth but I don't think that is going to be happening at all. I keep going back to the thought processes that make me miserable.

What does it happen like this? Nothing changes, no one changes. I don't change. I am so stupid and I should know better. I have my same stupid dreams and I delude myself into believing that my dreams would finally come true. CDO is great and I have been given a lot of hope there but I should not kid myself.

I am so stupid. I really am so stupid for thinking the same thoughts. I will change. I have to. I know that thinking the same thoughts will bring back the same old stupid situations.

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